urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes you and me and the devil makes three Dana 2009-04-15T18:05:49Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:66585 2009-04-15T18:05:49Z 2009-04-15T18:05:49Z the problem with lasek surgery is the amount of eye drops i need to use for the next few days. it's not even the eyedrops themselves but the fact that after i've used two different kinds, i immediately forget which ones i've already used and basically have to start all over at the risk of not using all of them.<br /><br />on another note, this whole lasek deal is incredible. i was terrified that it would hurt... i felt nothing but i did get to see a lot of pretty "starbursts" as the laser hit my eye. you can kind of see them cutting away your eye stuff as well. if you're curious, google it on youtube. that's what i did! i can't wait to get the bandage contact lens removed on monday!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:63773 2007-12-07T01:15:26Z 2007-12-07T01:15:26Z laziness has set in my bones to the point where it's ridiculous. i just wrote lesson plans... yet i have no idea what i'm teaching.<br /><br />the heat in my car is broken and driving back from taking daniel to the train, i was reminded of the fact that i need new tires as i skidded through a stop sign with my foot solidly on the brake.<br /><br />the sweatshirt that i'm wearing smells so strongly of daniel after he showers; it's my only real reminder that he was here this morning. he left so early today; it's weird remembering that i used to spend weekends without him, recovering from 3am nights and hangovers while wrapped in blankets on the couch with my roommates. <br /><br />it was the first snow of the year this morning; i gave binghamton a tribute by wearing flip flops as i walked to my car. damn, that was stupid. and cold. i miss those days. it's funny remembering who i was. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:63370 2007-11-21T03:16:19Z 2007-11-21T03:16:19Z holy shit, i am tired.<br /><br />sidenote, best present ever? $2,845 check for doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:62740 2007-09-20T00:41:56Z 2007-09-20T00:41:56Z oka....i have mmr.coye for homeroom and its going good me and arey are like the smartest...lol and for english only the kids you had knows how to take notes<br />thats crazy right i know...anyway i wanna go to boys and girls highschool next year<br />i ask all my teachers what is my score still and they all said that i have a 100 still im going to try and keep it that way....im happy that school is started- hooray- lol there isnt any trouble makers in oue class im so happy about that...what else is there to say <br /> <br />o for english we all have to write an autobiography about our life, and i was the only one to get an 4 on it. I am so happy.i turn in all my homwork at all the right times...they are not playing this year about all that nonsense so i was just like <br /> <br />well forget it there is no time for me to bullshit....sorry but that was what was running in my head, by the way i was looking for you in the school.....where are you i miss you i want to give you a huge hug and a simple kiss just to let you know im happy that you worked me the way you did because now im doing great. But until then i am going to do my best for you and everyone else who helped me the most......exspeaily when i needed it the most.....bye miss. Levenson <br /> <br /> xoxo.Victoria.xoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:62451 2007-08-24T05:57:03Z 2007-08-24T05:57:03Z it's a sad day when i get excited by buying binders and hole punchers. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:61541 2007-05-28T22:47:31Z 2007-05-28T22:47:31Z 21 days left. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:60011 2006-11-06T04:44:15Z 2006-11-06T04:44:15Z i think i've sneezed a million times tonight. and each time i sneeze, it sounds exactly like i'm saying the name "Apu!" i'm getting sick. not good. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:59069 2006-07-17T19:03:43Z 2006-07-17T19:03:43Z My life is paused in the middle of the day; for once i'm not rushing off somewhere to change a life or take a test or take a train, a subway, and a car ride to daniel. if i were punctuation, right now i would be drifting my body into a soft comma and just staying stationary on the page. <br /><br />i'm starting this entry off like the usual dozen that i tend to delete. but it's such a lazy day, too lazy to slash this page up into anonymity.<br /><br />i found something i'm passionate about. the more i teach, the more i think i like doing it. i give high-fives during class and relate methane to belching cows and fractions to detention. i watch the children, surprised and laughing and suddenly understanding and it's "wow, i did that." i walk more authoritatively down the street and speak more often and louder.<br /><br />and i know on weekends or whenever we possibly can, there's a safe place in the crook of daniel's arm that i can lay for hours. sometimes it's so strange to look at him and think that all he wants to do is make me happy. i can't explain it, sometimes the wonder of it literally gives me goosebumps.<br /><br />i'm still the same mess that i've always been; shiny objects still distract me, i never answer my cell phone, and apparently i talk in my sleep. but it's such a great feeling to feel so imperfectly perfect. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:58703 2006-07-12T02:39:04Z 2006-07-12T02:39:04Z it's the strangest feeling.. i'm confused by the fact that i finished my work at an early-ish hour. i feel like i still should be doing sooo much. i REALLY teach for the first time tomorrow.. and for real, i'm excited.<br /><br />i'll be honest, life is strange lately. i'm feeling myself change; from nervous at teaching to critical of bad teachers that i see to loving working with the kids to not dreading september. some of what i've been seeing is truly heartbreaking. some of it is joyful and wonderful and makes me smile and talk to strangers just because i can't hold my heart in. <br /><br />life outside of work is spent with daniel, either with him or some form of communication. in about an hour and a half, we hit the 6 month mark, which is crazy to me.<br /><br />idk, wish me luck tomorrow!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:58176 2006-06-27T23:46:57Z 2006-06-27T23:46:57Z monday night, i saw a jazz concert at carnegie hall with daniel and his family before coming home for tuesday and the first day of training (the teachers actually call it boot camp; i guess it's relatively accurate). the first week of training was interesting. the first day, i was sure i wouldn't go back ever again, but i did, and now it almost seems like something i could potentially like a lot. i find myself flip-flopping between contentment and pure unadulterated terror (i'm still terrified of public speaking) but if teaching is going to be my career.. dana, suck it up. i like the people in my group a lot, even if i'm not sure that i'm completely acting like myself (again, the terror thing makes me pretty giddy). i've been at daniel's from thurs to mon which again was a nice break from life. that boy always makes me feel better about everything. we went swimming and not much else, which is pretty perfect in my opinion... and his mom bought me chocolate mint chip ice cream... pure bliss, spoon style.<br /><br />i guess that's really it in the life of the dana. i'm soooo effing tired, yo. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:57906 2006-06-13T16:51:33Z 2006-06-13T16:51:33Z totally random but if you believe in signs, here's one:<br /><br />i was in the city yesterday with Daniel and we were trying to win tickets to see Rent through the lottery. (Basically, you give your name and they pick randomly 2 hours before the show begins.) They had called out the winning names already and of course Daniel had won because somehow he always wins-- i'm definitely not complaining. I walk over and say to him, "This is bad because I made a deal with g-d that if i had won, I would enjoy teaching." As I literally finish my sentence, apparently a girl didn't want her winning tickets so the guy picking names calls me and we ended up sitting in the first row, dead center. At the intermission, I leaned over and got a guitar pick off the stage.<br /><br />I guess I will like my job next year? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:57820 2006-06-09T22:01:03Z 2006-06-09T22:01:03Z i haven't written in forever because i've been happy and busy and therefore really have nothing to vent about.<br /><br />i see daniel a lot and we've done some amazing things. we've been to the philharmonic, Wicked, movies, baseball games, random trips upstate to swim in a lake and jump on trampolines, the zoo, operas, and lots of laziness. sometimes i think that's my favorite part, the laziness- the comfortable cuddling as we fall into random nonsensical conversations. our latest escapade was marching in the israeli day parade which was something i found myself loving. as daniel put it, it was an opportunity to wave and talk to random people.<br /><br />it's hard to write this because i can't add how i feel around him or how we finish each other's sentences or how he attempted to clean my room while i showered. or how he picks the chocolate pieces out of the ice cream for me because that's my favorite part or makes me take allergy medicine. he makes me feel special and it took 5 months for me to write that down.<br /><br />there are certain memories i have with him that are so perfect that i wrap them around me like a blanket. mooshy, yes, but it's things like that that make life simply wonderful.<br /><br />i have my teaching certification test on saturday. i've been studying with mike mcshane, which is an experience in itself. imagine SAT-like passages being read out in alternating, chinese, indian, and british accents. add in a slightly deformed dog and a GPS system and you get our typical studying situation. he's fun.<br /><br />monday is 5 months with daniel. who would have thought? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:57362 2006-05-12T22:28:09Z 2006-05-12T22:28:09Z i'm getting really grumpy about graduation and missing both graduation and bar crawl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:57146 2006-03-21T07:50:45Z 2006-03-21T07:50:45Z when i think of what happy feels like, i never would have equated it to this. but it's having a heart so full that one more little thing will make you pee in your pants.<br /><br />80 things you might not know about me.<br />Erase my answers, fill in your own, and repost.<br /><br />1. What is your middle name?<br />Lauren<br /><br />2. Where does your dad work?<br />nursing home<br /><br />3.What are you listening to right now?<br />david gray<br /><br />4. What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?<br />7645<br />5. What was the last thing you ate?<br />chicken marsala<br />6. Last person you hugged and kissed?<br />daniel<br /><br />7. How is the weather right now?<br />very very cold<br />8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?<br />sara<br /><br />9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?<br />personality<br /><br />10. Favorite type of Food?<br />sushi<br /><br />11. Do you want children?<br />eventually<br /><br />12. Do you get high?<br />on life<br /><br />13. Last concert you have been to?<br />hmm, i'm actually not sure.. does the opera count? (la boheme!!)<br /><br />14. Hair color?<br />brown<br /><br />15. Eye color?<br />green<br /><br />16. Do you wear eye contacts?<br />haha oh yes.. especially since someone broke my glasses..<br /><br />17. Favorite holiday?<br />christmas, so techically i guess hannukah, halloween<br /><br />18. Favorite Season?<br />summer or winter<br /><br />19. Ever cried over a girl?<br />sometimes, fights aren't fun<br /><br />20. Last Movie you Watched?<br />jarhead<br /><br />29. What books are you reading?<br />o'connor<br /><br />30. Piercings?<br />too many<br /><br />31. Favorite Movie?<br />the lion king, silence of the lambs<br /><br />32. Favorite college football Team?<br />binghamton!!!!<br /><br />33. What were you doing before filling this out?<br />chatting online with hot babes all day<br /><br />34. When is your half birthday?<br />yo no se<br /><br />35. Have you ever been shocked about anything?<br />i prefer "sense of wonder"<br /><br />36. Dogs or cats?<br />dogs!! except for taz who is fat and wonderful<br /><br />37. Favorite Drink?<br />diet cherry coke<br /><br />38. Favorite Flower?<br />white roses or sunflowers<br /><br />40. Have you ever loved someone?<br />maybe, family not included<br /><br />41. Who would you like to see right now?<br />daniel<br /><br />42. what color are your bedroom walls?<br />a strange off color white<br /><br />43. Have you ever fired a gun?<br />only in tetris<br />44. Do you like to travel by plane?<br />yes! that means i'm going somewhere exotic!<br /><br />45. Right-handed or Left-handed?<br />right<br /><br />46. Favorite City?<br />nyc, montreal<br /><br />48. Are you missing someone?<br />wow, i'm a dork (yes:) )<br /><br />49. Do you have a tattoo?<br />too permanent for my fickle ways<br /><br />50. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?<br />i watched rocco's modern life last night!<br /><br />51. Are you hiding something from someone?<br />quite possible<br /><br />52. ARE YOU 18?<br />nope, 21 is way better<br /><br />53. What is the wallpaper on your cellphone?<br />the generic one it came with<br /><br />54. Did you get enough sleep last night?<br />definitely not:)<br /><br />55. First thing you think about in the morning?<br />are we actually going to class this morning/is daniel going to give me a wedgie or jump on me<br /><br />56. What do you always have handy at your bedside?<br />cell<br /><br />57. Grilled or fried?<br />grilled<br /><br />59. Shirt your wearing right now?<br />haha one i stole from someone:)<br /><br />60. Are you afraid of the dark?<br />sometimes<br /><br />61. Favorite hangout?<br />rayray's house!<br /><br />62. 3 Things you can't live without?<br />family, friends, cell<br /><br />63. First thing if you were given 4 thousand dollars?<br />travel!!!<br /><br />64. Favorite song?<br />it changes a lot, long time favorite is bush - glycerine though<br /><br />65. What are you afraid of?<br />ultimately being alone/not being happy<br /><br />66. Are you a giver or a taker?<br />a little of both<br /><br />67. What are your nicknames?<br />day, dane, bonecrusha, a lot of really dumb ones from daniel, <br /><br />68. What's your dad's name?<br />ivan<br /><br />69. What is your moms name?<br />andrea<br /><br />70.What would you bring if you were stuck on a deserted island?<br />a boat<br /><br />71. Favorite tv commercial?<br />ehh<br /><br />72. Whos your cellphone provider?<br />verizon<br /><br />73. First thing you would save in a fire?<br />blue, because he'd be too dumb to try to escape<br /><br />74.What is your favorite color?<br />blue and purple<br /><br />75. What are 2 things you would have if you could have them at all times?<br /> Blue and tazzy, my green sweatshirt.. ok fine i know that's 3<br /><br /><br />76. What did you wanna be when you were younger?<br />a writer on a farm<br /><br />77. What do you do when your alarm goes off?<br />wait for daniel to shut it off.. assuming he bothtered to pretend that we're going to class<br /><br />78. The color of your bedsheets?<br />blue and white<br /><br />79. Who do you want to meet?<br />people who make me happy<br /><br />80. What do you think about before you go to bed?<br />how lucky i am urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:56741 2006-01-18T09:08:17Z 2006-01-18T09:08:17Z Massive Attack - Teardrop it's funny how something i've been so scared of for such a long time can be so wonderful. people keep asking me what he looks like, how he acts, does he have any cute friends, if he makes me happy. and i am happy, ridiculously so, and it's a kind of happy i've never felt before where i can't even pick an individual moment because they all make me smile like an absolute fool. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:56191 2006-01-03T20:11:23Z 2006-01-03T20:11:23Z new years was wonderful; that's all there really is to say about that. i hope everyone had a great time and all that jazz:)<br /><br />i'm ridiculously excited for the next two days. for now, that is all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:55898 2005-12-31T10:21:50Z 2005-12-31T10:21:50Z he is a great man, and on bad days he remembers who he is and tries to speak. on good days, the tubes running throughout his body keep him comatose and somewhere else. his constant cologne of laughter and cigar smoke is only a memory; i think they sterilize life in an effort to freeze the living in some false symphony. i want to remember him teaching me card games and swinging me onto a bed that was too high up for my 4 year old legs to conquer.<br /><br />she speaks of leaving him laying there, this man who was larger than life in so many ways, how it doesn't matter if his socks are clean anymore as long as she can kiss his forehead one more time. i watch her thin veined hand tremble and she says, "i think i defied fate today."<br /><br />somewhere on a white bed in the midst of busling, forgetful, so very alive brooklyn, he draws another breath. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:55627 2005-12-28T01:20:23Z 2005-12-28T01:20:23Z my favorite toy is fire. just not literally. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:54802 2005-12-23T22:25:07Z 2005-12-23T22:25:07Z everything i write is so emo that it's ridiculous.<br /><br />i don't know how to deal with myself like this. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:53210 2005-11-08T19:01:30Z 2005-11-08T19:01:30Z i'm incapable of washing my face without completely soaking my surroundings,<br /><br />i'm so anti-going to class that it's kind of ridiculous,<br /><br />i'm going to start running again,<br /><br />i'm addicted to my green blazer (i'm classy, yo),<br /><br />i wrote serena my first check ever!!,<br /><br />my computer keeps playing "Walk this Way",<br /><br />i really want to see donny,<br /><br />and also, for the first time ever, a song reduced me to tears. <br /><br />most importantly, i should leave now for class if i plan on getting a parking spot!!! lameeee. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:52211 2005-10-29T20:34:10Z 2005-10-29T20:34:10Z party here tonight. absolutely wonderful. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:50265 2005-09-27T05:02:33Z 2005-09-27T05:02:33Z in moderation, this sensation would be fabulous. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:48529 2005-08-28T01:11:07Z 2005-08-28T01:11:07Z lately a lot of my drama begins with someone spilling a drink on me then licking it off. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fire_escapes:47937 2005-08-24T18:46:16Z 2005-08-24T18:46:16Z thursday life = so so ridiculous&lt;3